UNRELEASED

PER ASPERA

PT. I

It's not that easy

To cover all you've ever been

To dress up white

When black's your kin

But it's good to dream sometimes

So I picked you up

Though you didn't need much help

I'm versed in talking up myself

You saw through me

Love isn't glory

It's not honor or myth

I think it's a giving away

See I've been living

But only in part

That comes when all you've known is dark

But there is bright in you

AD ASTRA

PT. II

It has a beauty

There's a peace to be alone

No one to break the walls you've grown

But it gets cold sometimes

It taught me masquerades

I'm never one to be in need

But I've been living just to breathe

Someone will come for me

Home isn't a place or person or space

It's the light when everything goes dark

This cage has marred what I'd become

It's left me beaten, bruised, and numb

You made me feel again

SILIKA

You are the reason that I sing

You are my God, you're everything

You breathed to life my failed byegones

Somewhere in me I am strong

Tell me that I'm a good man

Tell me that I have a strong hand

Tell me that I'm doing right

Tell me to come home tonight

I know to leave you but I can't

You are the only thing I want

You are the one who understood

Somewhere in me I am good

Tell me that I'm a good man

Tell me that I have a strong hand

Tell me that I'm doing right

Tell me to come home tonight

You showed my heart

You showed my mind

Somewhere in me I'm alive

But love's a thing you can't control

I just

I need to know I'm not alone

I'm not alone

Tell me that I'm a good man

Tell me that I have a strong hand

Tell me that I'm doing right

Tell me to come home tonight

Your body-

Our bodies-

Were made for this

Christopher Dean

(Le Coeur)

It's going to hurt sometimes

It's going to burn sometimes

I'll come up short sometimes

I'll never learn sometimes

You're going to fall sometimes

Not want to call sometimes

Not want to write sometimes

We're going to fight sometimes

I'm going to leave sometimes

You're going to bleed sometimes

I'm going to take sometimes

It's going to break sometimes

But when I cut sometimes

I'll fix you up sometimes

I'll hold you close sometimes

Won't let you go sometimes

When I run sometimes

I'll turn around sometimes

I'll come back home sometimes

Won't let you go this time

You're the one that's mine

I'll never leave this time

I'll keep you safe inside

It's gonna be alright

It's gonna be alright.

EDEN

I’m sorry

I’m not the man you thought I would be

I took from the tree and bit down

I lost her

These ribs in my side

Do no good if she’s not around

Echoes of Eden ring on this earth

In a cool summer breeze

The wind in the trees

When she tells me I’m hers

And she is mine

I see it

This bloody red stain in the dirt and the rain

I can tell I’m not where I once was

I’m trying

To claw my way out

Of this grave dug with my own two hands

Echoes of Eden ring on this earth

In a cool summer breeze

The wind in the trees

When she tells me I’m hers

And she is mine

My heel’s been struck

My side’s been stuck

With a thorn that’s prone to leaving

I’ve tasted and seen

Of every good thing

Still I swoon at the shit of this world

I’ve been found

She pulled me back up from the lies and distrust

Took my hand and helped me stand tall

We’ll get there

Where the bright, starry sky

Meets the dawn and we’ll be there with you

Echoes of Eden ring on this earth

In a cool summer breeze

The wind in the trees

When she tells me I’m hers

And she is mine

fragile

You're the rustling in my sleep tonight

The blanket pulled above my eyes

The closet monster fears incite

You're the one who leaves at dawn's first light

I don't remember who I am

I know who I was 

And want to be

When you gaze into the glass ahead

Am I what you thought you'd see?

You're the closet bones I try to hide

The darkened tale I pray forget

The limping in my once tall stride

You're the dagger mark etched in my pride

I don't remember who I am

I know who I was 

And want to be

When you gaze into the glass ahead

Am I what you thought you'd see?

You've been keeping me honest

Reminding me what these hands have done

What they could one day do for you

My fragile heart fears to hope

But God do I want to.

Lay me down slow

On a cold December night my father looked straight into my soul

Said, "Son you know I love you there’s a few things I think you oughta know-

This body’s not your own, this world is not your home

Life is like a small town, and we’re just strangers passing in the night

So find the one you love, don’t give up and never leave without a fight"

When my days are done lay me down in the waters

When my breath is gone let me be consumed by the fires

When my life is past let me go on to join my fathers

And when I go lay me down slow

It’s funny how your life never turns the way you thought that it would go

I’m a hopeless, wandering soul, this misdirection's the only guide I’ve ever known

I need faith just like a child, life is more than this I feel it in my heart

I need the strength to face my fears and my demons they’ve been hiding in the dark

I’ve heard tales of one who loves and forgives I should’ve trusted from the start

When my days are done lay me down in the waters

When my breath is gone let me be consumed by the fires

When my life is past let me go on to join my fathers

And when I go lay me down slow

You see I’ve always known that from dust I came and there I shall return

So I’ve been spending all my days finding rest in one whose love I couldn’t earn

This race will one day cease, I hope in the end my mind will be at peace

When this life comes to a close, I pray they say he shared his love with all he knows

When my days are done lay me down in the waters

When my breath is gone let me be consumed by the fires

When my life is past let me go on to join my fathers

And when I go lay me down slow